As I dawdled back from the station seeing my girlfriend off I started to think where I see my life going. Of course I have always had dreams, ambitions and just plain ordinary things I want to achieve. For example, get a job I’m happy with that makes ends meet in the life I have become accustomed to, have enough spare time to take up some of the hobbies I want to, not to mention the money for half of them, settle down and have a family. Now I know that last one sounds like a slightly strange thing for 21 year old male to say, but it’s pretty high on my list all the same and is probably the most important to me by a long way. Now although I have always had this little list, some of the things on it seemed a bit further in the distance than others. I think I’ve finally got to the point where I can see how to do all this. I’m not even close to actually doing it, but at least I can see how I can which is very comforting. The less comforting side effect is that I can also see how little of what I need to do am I actually doing. This is made all the more complicated by missing someone very much.

One thing I do invite everyone to watch at some point is this video. I know it is long, in fact it’s very long (hence the stupid time I’m writing this) but it is very much worth it. It is basically a university lecturer in the US giving his final lecture knowing he is going to die. It is all about his reflections on life and the good and bad things from his life. It was made famous on the web a little while ago but I have only just found the time (*tries not to laugh*) to watch it. All I can say is it is very very worth the comparatively little time it needs.

Running time: 1hour 44mins